Saturday, April 26, 2008
Dear blog,
WwwwOW! omg i can't believe i am, LIM YEE CHUIN IS, SITTING RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER COMPUTER BLOGGING AFTER 100000000 YEARS. HAHAHAHA. i doubt anyone reads it now anyway but whatever la! i suddenly really felt like blogging because like a thousand things/feelings are running through my head now.
context: just came home from guitar concert + concert in less than 2 weeks' time + there is still school(tests).
while i was watching the concert, i had this whole gush of feelings coming over me. suddenly i felt like i'm one of the performers on stage, totally experiencing what they are feeling at that moment. the anxiety+nervousness+enjoyment+happiness+proudness+sense of accomplishment+(many other adjectives). ohman, and suddenly i felt so nervous for my own concert in 2 weeks' time! like how i will not be able to sleep the night before and for that whole week + how i just want to pon all lessons and put all my energy into choir and the concert and nothing else. god, im scared+worried. i'm scared that i havent done enough, im scared that i havent done my part well as a president, im scared that i'm the one who'll bring the concert down. gosh im really scared. then again, sometimes i wonder i've done enough such that they understand what i've done and what i'm doing? (i know ive tried and have been trying to put in my 110% into choir, sometimes i think to myself, i don't care if they appreciate and know what and why im doing all these, all im asking for is to let the concert be a great one. - though of course i wouldnt mind at all if they'd like to present me with one cute little tiara after concert or carve a statue of me of sort :p HAHAHA) -sidetrack, yes blog, im dreaming- but anyway, yeah, i mean like gosh after four years, four years has been such a longtime. It's funny how you feel so old, how you've seen so many batches come and go, learn from all the past mistakes of the previous batches and yet at the same time, wondering if you've ever made the same mistakes as they did in the past. and pfoof, it's the last concert. i wonderhow empty suddenly i'll feel when everything's over. how the past four years, i ve worked and waited for this very day, to finally plan and organize this last concert of mine. gosh. ohman. even as im tying this, i already feel like crying. ohman. dear blog, do u think they know?
ohwell, it's in 2 weeks' time only! hang in there lim yeechuin!
WwwwOW! omg i can't believe i am, LIM YEE CHUIN IS, SITTING RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER COMPUTER BLOGGING AFTER 100000000 YEARS. HAHAHAHA. i doubt anyone reads it now anyway but whatever la! i suddenly really felt like blogging because like a thousand things/feelings are running through my head now.
context: just came home from guitar concert + concert in less than 2 weeks' time + there is still school(tests).
while i was watching the concert, i had this whole gush of feelings coming over me. suddenly i felt like i'm one of the performers on stage, totally experiencing what they are feeling at that moment. the anxiety+nervousness+enjoyment+happiness+proudness+sense of accomplishment+(many other adjectives). ohman, and suddenly i felt so nervous for my own concert in 2 weeks' time! like how i will not be able to sleep the night before and for that whole week + how i just want to pon all lessons and put all my energy into choir and the concert and nothing else. god, im scared+worried. i'm scared that i havent done enough, im scared that i havent done my part well as a president, im scared that i'm the one who'll bring the concert down. gosh im really scared. then again, sometimes i wonder i've done enough such that they understand what i've done and what i'm doing? (i know ive tried and have been trying to put in my 110% into choir, sometimes i think to myself, i don't care if they appreciate and know what and why im doing all these, all im asking for is to let the concert be a great one. - though of course i wouldnt mind at all if they'd like to present me with one cute little tiara after concert or carve a statue of me of sort :p HAHAHA) -sidetrack, yes blog, im dreaming- but anyway, yeah, i mean like gosh after four years, four years has been such a longtime. It's funny how you feel so old, how you've seen so many batches come and go, learn from all the past mistakes of the previous batches and yet at the same time, wondering if you've ever made the same mistakes as they did in the past. and pfoof, it's the last concert. i wonderhow empty suddenly i'll feel when everything's over. how the past four years, i ve worked and waited for this very day, to finally plan and organize this last concert of mine. gosh. ohman. even as im tying this, i already feel like crying. ohman. dear blog, do u think they know?
ohwell, it's in 2 weeks' time only! hang in there lim yeechuin!
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