princess in training

Hm, it's kinda disturbing that sometimes even the people you consider them to be one of the closer/closest to you can kinda like annoy you? Annoy may not be the correct word, but the feeling its kinda between annoy and disappoint? I dont know, but its just this irritating/annoying/disappointing feeling that i need to get off my chest. Maybe i am expecting too much. Yet you feel that you deserve better, deserve to be taken care of better, deserve to be considered with higher importance. You feel that you have done enough; you have put in so much effort without them realizing. You feel that its not fair, but has this world ever been fair? Their sudden changes (be it in terms of character/personality or mood) - you think you should be the first one to know? It's a 'mixed up-crazy" kind of feeling that is so hard to explain. I..don't know, sometimes i think its better off to live in a no man's land where you dont have to communicate with anyone or depend on anyone for anything. When there's no one around you who kinda have that kind of'responsibilities' to fulfil, you wont feel as disappointed because there's no expectations! Sigh i think im just probably expecting too much. I dont know, i really dont.

it just occured to me probably one of the reasons why i really love all those fairy-tales, cute romances with really happy endings and teen films where the girl and the guy go through hardships together and yay!live happily ever after is because they somehow seem to 'take' me away from the reality and allow me to think freely/fantasize. they kinda like represent my sort of perfect world/utopia where ppl falls in love through all sorts of cute ways which seldom happen in real life (probability of that happening in reality is HMM 1/100000? hahah) and the couple understands each other and do cute things as well. All in all, its just perfect. oh well, you cant blame me for being a sucker for cute fairy tales right? they're just so irresistable!

Hm im supposed to be studying for my maths B test..PROBABILITY of me passing is --.
I guess i'll just let nature takes its course and try not to think so much. (:

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