princess in training

Thank you everyone for making that possible (:

I guess it's a real great learning experience for me, in terms of learning how to deal with PR-related problems and yeah touching people. It's really not so much of how big the event/thing is, but instead, small little things that make everything possible. Im glad the seniors are touched and yeah, had fun and a great time! im sure we juniors felt the same too.. It's the bond that we formed, through a common love that bind us so strongly together i guess? For me, i found really good friends here, friends that will be there for me. It really made me understand alot more about myself, about how other people behave and think. While it's rather sad that i;ve seen so many batches come and leave, and i would really rather grow with one batch but well, that's life isnt it? Tears and smiles, part and parcel of leaving ain't them? I love the time i had with them, a batch with little/no politics, a batch that stood through obstacles together, a batch that really made me feel at home. The two previous batches, hm they were good i have to say, but it didn't feel so much like a choir. There were politics and yeah, it.. it just didnt feel the same. But nonetheless, glad that everything turned out fine! despite all the last min stuff. yeah thanks everyone!

Maybe it's just me, but i've turned more skeptical and critical of things around me. Perhaps it's more of the expectations i always have of others, wanting others to be this be that, to do this do that, and when they somehow fail me i will bring on misery/stress upon myself.

Somehow, i really don't feel like i know you anymore. Maybe it's the lack of communication, but i dont feel like im involved in some way. It's like 2 entities, coming together occasionally. I just dont feel it, something i think i felt before but not now. It makes it even harder i guess, forme to relate to you? Cos somehow you're just not there. back to the expectations part, maybe it's really of the expectations i have of you, but yet i cant really say you have failed to hit it, cos occassionally you do. It's reeally this complicated and contradicting feeling that keepsbugging my mind.. i dont know ): sometimes, i just really wanna drop everything and just break away. I want to know you better, i want to help, i want to bemore involved, but yet i know, sometimes i may just be impossible as we ARE two different entities. I guessmaybe after the analysis i had a few days earlier, things became clearer especially on why i feel sad/confused. It's alot on expectations. Maybe kaiyin's right. maybe love isn't what we young people think as it should be.

Please, let me get this straight right out of my mind, let me have peace, let myself be clear of what i really want. Who says things are simple? Nothing in this world is simple. nothing. I really did consider before living in no man's island. Well at least i wont have the disappointment from expectations. Maybe im expecting too much, maybe there's nothing wrong in the first place. Maybe im justthinking too much. Sigh, sometimes i wish ima guy instead. girls think too much and are too emotional for their own good. Or maybe i need to learn how not to think too much.

oh haha Im the new assis general secretary to youth executive committee!:D