princess in training

Dear blog, <-- (it's something stupid that you'll do once in a while, like imagining your blog is one of your living friends :p)

I just had a nice talk with kerry and yeah im feeling so much better. girl talk does wonders do a person's moood. Yeah she's right la, take the attachment as a break and give myself the opportunity to really think about what's happening to me and things around me, to see if they are justifiable and not just a thought that occurred to me when im emotionally vulnerable. Funny how most people actually have morbid thoughts/negative/emotionally charged thoughts at night. She was telling me how huilin actually became really serious and depressed at midnight while studying for promos. I guess it's the same for everyone, we have our own time to feel morbid, the time when all your emotions are flowing out of you. All i can say is that i was rather depressed-disturbed-sad-insecure(?) earlier and woah kerry's good. (: heh no doubt my secretary who knows me. haha. Ah well, i seriously should just stop thinking so much...

Tmr's gonna be the start of an exciting period for me. NOW, i feel rather excited about it. haha! Earlier, as ive said, i was rather morbid and depressed and sad n (all the negative adj u can think of). It's the start of something new! Although i have to admit im worried about my acads. ESP maths and physics! I'm just gonna DIE. I have to be reeeeaaally hardworking from now on man, i cant afford to lose it! Well, not a bad way to start this year, a trip out to tianjin for 5 weeks! (: Seriously, i think im really lucky to have this chance and yeah Im so not going to let anything and anyone affect me.

Speaking of people affecting one another, i was rather sad that one of my close friends (name cant be revealed) actually cried earlier because of this mega jerk jerk jerk! urgh! I think it's so not worth it but im so glad she's totally okay now. I think girls are really the more vulnerable one in a relationship because they tend to think and worry about small little details that guys do not seem to care. And because of that, girls tend to get hurt more easily? Some people might not agree with me but that's my view la. We worry ourselves out/ we think until our brains' r gonna explode/we lose sleep/we cry. urgh it's getting sickening! sigh but ohwell, i think it's up to individuals to decide what they wanna do. In the meantime, i do hope everything will be alright here and there's internet over there so i get to keep a record of things that happen over there in china. (:

loads of love always,
yee chuin